This is my collage, glued to the front of a Christmas album cover:
I made the collage tonight. I very nearly didn't. I was tired and the lure of just giving up and heading to bed was very strong. I felt such despair..I can NEVER make this happen. Have you ever felt like that? It's such a hollow feeling. Putrid, almost.
Somehow, I just pushed through, I think mostly because I felt so much anger about how stuck I have been. But then...I did it! I made something visual. Something that has a lot of power. Something that somehow, via bits of cut-up magazine pictures and glue, makes a vision REAL in my own mind. This is me. The real me. And I have the will to make this show on the outside.
Sure, I have not made it all happen yet. But I have surely started. Isn't it true that when I set my mind to something...I make it happen? So why not this?
Why not a strong, healthy, flexible body full of abundant, good healthy food?
Why not a beautiful home and garden? Why not more children? Why not continue with the adventure that is my marriage to my love (or "lobster", as we say to one another)?
I can do it and the truth of it is inside me.